losin love

i use to jus want him an now i need him he swears im not goin anywhere an niether is he even after death but i feel like somthings still missin wen his away to long i cant be literally i get anixity an he jus lost a close friend an i knw i should give him a lil space but not to much but i feel if i losin my grab he run like a wild dog but then again if i keep stressin him hell snatch away an fly like a baloon...i cant sleep when he's not here i have to take sleepin pills just sleep ambiant...but cant really take now cuz i might be pergnant