Reveal my love n maybe be happy or stay quiet to be unhappy?

actually i love a boy named hurshit ...he is doing medecine abroad..i know his family pretty well n his mine...hurshit n i aren't too muchfriend bt we can exchange smile. i didn't reveal my feelings to hurshit before he went abroad as now am obese i wanted to loose weight before his arrival.... and secondly am afraid that he tells his family and i'll be wrongly judged n thirdly that i might loose him because he is more career oriented...and also i think that am not beautiful for him to love me...plz help me am in total sadness.....