love

i loving a girl first in my life.. she is also my same age(22). i told my love to her, bt she says no. Bt aftr 3 weeks, we became close by creating a frndshp agreement. When i realise that am loosing me by seeing my love as a frnd, i stopd to talk her. i can't see her as a frnd. becoz i loved her very much. nw also her stand is against my love. But she is my first love and i can't live without her. when i thnk about her, tears will come out of my eyes... i want her.. she knew that nw also am loving her very much. but i dnt knw wat to do.. definitely i will looose my life, aftr her marriage.