All These Extra Thoughts
How could I be both happy and afraid? I feel as a spirit trapped between two worlds. One of wretchedness, deceit, betrayal, confusion, and immoral beings. The other, my vision of peace, love, loyalty, respect, wealth, true commitment and life long unbreakable partnership/companionship. To smile and never dread sadness, again!(just a thought) One world, I am but a merger, average, lower income environment raised, minority with the economical and physical future, as that of a statistical Black man in America. Damn, the feeling of hopelessness and marginally insufficient funds!(another thought). The other, I am a powerfully positive influence, philanthropist, major provider of minority employment, and in a relationship of inspiring unity. With plenty to leave my children. I thought, to be in love would be easy: Just feel and make feel; do and let do, but stick close forever, stronger than any glue... What makes such strong yearnings turn to so much long hurting? I sacrificed, as any man, who has wholeheartedly given there best intentions and all attention to one woman. I miss being pure and trusting.(theses thoughts) Convinced the feelings we shared were solely between us, I grew wings(No RedBull Either) ...and my spirit took flight to personally thank The Creator. I honestly, felt as if I had just been released from years in Hell, because everything about you, made my whole being feel as if it had been Eternally Upgraded to Heaven. Why can't old boyfriends just understand that they're like children's clothes, they get out dated and out grown! Move on! You got with her too early, and now that she's found herself and stopped growing, I fit perfectly!(all of these extra thoughts)...2 Be Con't
~Fox Jaycaliber
