love

8 years ago

I have loved someone for months already. I never wanted nor looked for anyone else. but there was a moment I fell for someone else, and now I'm stuck in between two. the girl I loved for 8 months, I just cant get over her. I tried many things to get over her but I cant. I mean I prefer her happiness before mine, I wouldn't really go out with her because ima afraid ill lose her. I don't want to lose her as a friend, so in that case I would rather see her happy with someone else. but all I do is think of her, just wishing she loved me the way I do. this other girl I just meant, we were having a thing. but I noticed I didn't, don't love her the way I love the other girl. yes, I like this new girl, but I cant love her the way I love the other girl that I loved for 8 months. I knew I want to wait for this other girl that I been waiting for 8 months, even though I knew she doesn't love me. I want to wait for her even if its my whole life. but all she reslly does is reject me, cause she doesn't love me. I mean we are really close friends, I trust her in everything. I can tell her everything, shell always be there for me, she makes me feel this certain way I cant explain. the other girl, she make me feel happy, but I know I don't really want to be with her, I don't want to lose her as a friend neither. I told her what I feel because I cant lie, I like being honest. I mean I want to try and forget the other girl, but nothing seems to work. I miss the way me and this girl talked on the phone every day I miss the good times, but in loving her the way I love this other girl no, its different. I just want to know what to do, I hate hurting people. I don't no one to get hurt, I want to know if what I feel for this one girl I loved for 8 months is love or obsession, ill call her Delilah. I also want to knew if what I feel for the other new girl is love or did I just want to forget Delilah, ill call the new girl Alice. I mean Delilah always been there for me and made me believe in myself, she made me strong. but this other girl Alice made me have a break down, made me feel the worst about myself. I want to know what should I do. I mean I want to know who should I be with, but when I think about it my heart says Delilah and my head pictures her. nut then I just don't want to lose Alice.