In all my agony, I still find myself at your doorstep...thinking of what could have been...What if I sat here and waited for you to appear...I'd be telling you how sorry I am for deceiving you, deserting you...I wanted to stay, I wanted to go... I chose the easy way out and flew away up high where I can pretend all is well... Untouchable, unbreakable, pure like an angel...

I told you the truth but I couldn't face it...I thought I was strong enough after all those years... Those long ago childhood memories could not separate us, so I thought...but love couldn't overcome the shame within me...

My love, I am fragmented in a million pieces and you can't fix me. So, I am leaving you this letter for you to keep as a memory of us... Remember me as I will remember you, the only one I ever loved and ever will... As I close my eyes for a moment and tears of despair run down my face, I can almost feel your hand in mine...How it hurts to let it go...

Goodbye,

L

e now

M